Lies My EX Told Me

 

This is a shout out to my ex. Joke lang. HAHA. I am not sure if this will get to him, but if in case it does, just know that I’m not writing this to make him look bad or for people to hate him. This is about me knowing all these times that he was lying but kept telling myself that he wouldn’t do such things. (But I was effin’ wrong)

  1. “Hindi na kita mahal” – I felt my heart break into pieces when I heard this. This can probably be true, but a part of me was hoping it was all a lie. How can someone you’ve spent so many years with just tell you they no longer love you? Like you weren’t a big part of their life. Like it was that easy to just walk right in and out of your life.
  2. “I did not cheat on you” – When you caught someone talking to their ex, admitting they miss them, telling they still see them differently and not just a friend or barkada, isn’t that cheating? When they’re deleting the conversation so you wouldn’t find out what other things they talked about, isn’t that cheating? A few years back, I’ve caught him multiple times talking to exes and to different girls but all I get was “I was just being friendly”. There’s a fucking thin line between being friendly and flirty.
  3. “Walang third party” – So ayun na nga, still in connection with #3, I hated it back then that he was still in touch with an ex, because I already knew he has tendencies of getting back with an ex. He kept telling me that we’re breaking up because he no longer loves me and there’s no third party. HAHAHA. Sobrang funny nito, Bes! Alam mo yung kahit mag-hihiwalay na kayo, imbis maiyak ka e matatawa ka. Sobrang bullshit kasi.

Sepanx

Separation Anxiety – Anxiety regarding separation from places or from people to whom the individual has a strong emotional attachment.

APAT NA TAON. Apat na taon na halos pare-parehong tao ang nakasama mo, pare-parehong mukha ang nakikita mo. Ang apat na taon na yun, matatapos na ngayon. Yung hindi ka pa man nagreresign, nakakalungkot na umalis.

Sa totoo lang, nung una kong nalaman magkahalong emosyon yung naramdaman ko. Malungkot kasi sobrang na-enjoy ko naman yung buong stay ko sa DB. Sabi ko nga nuon, I am already with the best people. Hindi lang naman fats at stress ang na-gain ko all throughout those 4 years. 🙂 I gained friends, a lot actually. And hindi rin naman puro work lang, naenjoy ko lahat ng team building, summer outing, badminton session, christmas party at kung anu-ano pang activities ng project! I guess that’s what I’m going to miss most too.

Words x Feelings

Nervous. Agitated. Afraid. Worried. Tensed. Words that definitely describe how I feel. I guess these are the reasons why I've been up all night. Thinking about leaving my current project…