I started drafting this post last Saturday after reading a post on James Deakin’s page about a certain car that drove off the 4th or 5th level of a parking building. What struck we was a certain comment saying that the girl who’s driving the car committed suicide because of a broken heart.
May her soul rest in peace. I got curious about what happened so I searched for her Facebook account. (more…)
Natakot ako noon mag-simula muli,
iniisip ko kung kaya ko pa bang ngumiti.
Baka ganun talaga kapag sobrang nasaktan ka
Parang gumuho lahat tapos naiwan kang mag-isa.
Yung pakiramdam na siya yung umalis pero ikaw yung nawala.
Yung pag-gising mo bawat umaga lagi ka lang tulala.
Yung mag-hapon kang nakakulong sa kwarto’t nakahiga.
Yung mababalot ng lungkot yung buo mong pagka-tao at maiiyak na lang bigla.
Pero nakakapagod din pala na puro lungkot na lang yung nadadama
Kaya isang araw sabi ko, “teka parang hindi na ito tama”
Ilang buwan yung sinayang ko at napunta lang sa wala.
Sasayangin ko na naman ba?
Unti-unti akong bumangon at pinulot isa-isa
bawat piraso ng puso kong iniwan niya nalang basta
Hindi naman mahalaga kung gaano katagal inabot
ang mahalaga alam kong itong puso ko ganoon pa din kalambot
Kaya naman muli kong binuksan ang aking puso,
alam kong dadating yung panahong mag-mamahal ulit ito.
Ang tanging ipinagdadasal ko,
sana doon na sa tamang tao.
Sa bawat pag-lipas ng mga oras at sandali
Doon ko naisip, wala naman palang mawawala kung magsisimula muli
Totoo na tuloy ang pag-ikot ng mundo
at hindi ito hihinto dahil lang sa iisang tao.
This is a shout out to my ex. Joke lang. HAHA. I am not sure if this will get to him, but if in case it does, just know that I’m not writing this to make him look bad or for people to hate him. This is about me knowing all these times that he was lying but kept telling myself that he wouldn’t do such things. (But I was effin’ wrong)
- “Hindi na kita mahal” – I felt my heart break into pieces when I heard this. This can probably be true, but a part of me was hoping it was all a lie. How can someone you’ve spent so many years with just tell you they no longer love you? Like you weren’t a big part of their life. Like it was that easy to just walk right in and out of your life.
- “I did not cheat on you” – When you caught someone talking to their ex, admitting they miss them, telling they still see them differently and not just a friend or barkada, isn’t that cheating? When they’re deleting the conversation so you wouldn’t find out what other things they talked about, isn’t that cheating? A few years back, I’ve caught him multiple times talking to exes and to different girls but all I get was “I was just being friendly”. There’s a fucking thin line between being friendly and flirty.
- “Walang third party” – So ayun na nga, still in connection with #3, I hated it back then that he was still in touch with an ex, because I already knew he has tendencies of getting back with an ex. He kept telling me that we’re breaking up because he no longer loves me and there’s no third party. HAHAHA. Sobrang funny nito, Bes! Alam mo yung kahit mag-hihiwalay na kayo, imbis maiyak ka e matatawa ka. Sobrang bullshit kasi. (more…)